urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910 Bob Bob 2004-02-24T01:28:24Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:19714 2004-02-24T01:28:24Z 2004-02-24T01:28:24Z radiohead - polyethylene If you don't believe me If you don't believe this <br />Sell your soul Sell yourself <br />If you don't get into it no one will urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:19590 2004-02-21T22:45:07Z 2004-02-21T22:45:07Z She says It helps with the lights out<br />Her rabid glow is like braille to the night.<br />She swears I'm a slave to the details<br />But if your life is such a big joke, why should I care? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:19274 2004-02-17T22:25:15Z 2004-02-17T22:25:15Z coheed and cambria - The Velorium Camper III: Al The Killer ahh<br />just got back from redeemer<br />(community service)<br />i was talking to courtney<br />for like two hours<br />it was wierd seeing her again<br />yea i had to watch little kids<br />it was alright though<br />i hope this weekend doesn't slip by <br />like the rest<br />i want to do something<br />alright imma go call someone<br />later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:18981 2004-02-16T02:19:33Z 2004-02-16T02:19:33Z well it's sunday <br />this weekend was pretty boring<br />friday i think we jsut skated all night and just chilled<br />i kinda forget <br />saturday my friend greg came up <br />and we just skated once again<br />tonight i hung out at jons all day<br />we went out and skated every once and a while<br />thats about it, <br />talk to you all later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:18912 2004-02-13T01:19:56Z 2004-02-13T01:19:56Z what if there is no god?<br />what if the bible is some story made up by some crazy asshole?<br />what if some people have based their lives on something that doesn't exist?<br />what if nothing happens for a reason?<br />what if i never went to redeemer?<br />what if i never started skatin?<br />who would i be?<br />where would i be?<br />what if i could change some stuff?<br /><br />damn..<br /><br />what if? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:18306 2004-02-09T20:32:01Z 2004-02-09T20:32:01Z friday i hung out wit jaime and her friend jackie<br />miguel and chris were with me<br />we had a fun time<br />saturday was a good skate day<br />all up until i busted my ankle<br />again<br />its all swollen and shit<br />oh well<br />then sunday we just sat in (me jon and chris)<br />well thats about it<br />school wasn't that bad today<br />alright <br />later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:18060 2004-02-06T20:04:06Z 2004-02-06T20:04:06Z ugh<br />finally the end of the week<br />this weekend should be cool<br />tonight i think im goin up jaime's <br />then tomorrow i think im hangin out with erin and her friends <br />then sunday<br />i might just chill or go to the skatepark or somethin i dunno<br />ill write at the end of the weekend to tell you all<br />how things went<br />peace urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:17725 2004-02-03T02:00:26Z 2004-02-03T02:00:26Z I'm seein red <br />Don't think you'll have to see my face again <br />don't have much time for sympathy <br />Cuz it never happened to me <br /><br />So follow the leader down <br />And swallow your pride and drown <br />When there's no place left to go <br />Maybe thats when you will know urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:17628 2004-02-02T04:41:22Z 2004-02-02T04:41:22Z man i really need to get up and get out<br />i've been just sitten around lately <br />i need to meet some people<br />need to find new stuff<br />i'm so sick of the same old same old<br />i need to skate more<br />beginning of a new quarter<br />i'm going to do good<br />no more bullshitting around<br />it's a whole new outlook on everything for me<br />why hate life?<br />i should enjoy it and get as much<br />fun out of it as possible<br />and i'm going to<br />no more pills<br />no more drinkin<br />no more of that stuff<br />it's pointless<br />everything's going to be great<br />and i'm so excited. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:17368 2004-01-29T06:54:35Z 2004-01-29T06:54:35Z its 2 in the morning<br />school at 7<br />what the fuck urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:16921 2004-01-28T04:11:06Z 2004-01-28T04:11:06Z some good old nirvana I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out then to fade away.<br /><br /> -Kurt Cobain-<br /><br />yea, that pretty much explains it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:16865 2004-01-26T05:56:06Z 2004-01-26T05:56:06Z well me and tabby <br />broke up<br />i don't know why she hates me so much<br />it wasn't all my fault<br />anyway im only puttin this in here <br />for her sake<br />i hope she can move on<br />she has a better soul then me<br />and it wouldn't be right for me to bring her down to my level<br />i guess ill be gettin an i hate you letter or a nasty comment<br />or something <br />but i guess i deserve it<br />so call me what you want <br />i wont fight back<br />ill just take it<br />so before you hate me forever<br />just know that i did care about you.<br /><br />If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:16595 2004-01-24T17:28:34Z 2004-01-24T17:28:34Z well everyone<br />it's been awhile since i really updated<br />im sitting here listenin to my music<br />just thinking,<br />so much thinking<br />man it's like i can't even put into words how i feel<br />it doesn't hurt but it doesn't feel good<br />i had a talk with my mom about everything<br />because she found out everything <br />the pills, the drinking and some other things ive done<br />in the past like weed and that stuff<br />so we talked until about three in the morning<br />she told me i was a fuck-up at one point<br />maybe she was right<br />i talked to her about me moving up the mountains<br />with my cousins<br />she actually took it into consideration<br />i would finish my feshman year at that fuckin retarded<br />school, judge<br />then i would go up the mountains into sophmore<br />i love philly<br />just not the people in it<br />maybe it would be for the better if i did go away<br />for awhile<br />i dont kno<br />i just really dont kno anymore.<br /><br />here's a bible passage for you all.<br /><br />Psalms 51<br /><br />1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. 4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. 5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me. 6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. 7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. 8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice. 9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. 11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. 12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:16349 2004-01-17T06:34:01Z 2004-01-17T06:34:01Z it's 1:30 in the morning i sat online since 11 oclock<br />waiting<br />and waiting<br />that kid jon caldwell spent the night at tabby's <br />he just broke up wit his girlfriend i read<br />i guess im just paranoid<br />i hope im just paranoid<br />please god let me be just paranoid<br />i cant take that too urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:16037 2004-01-17T03:30:02Z 2004-01-17T03:30:02Z Coheed and Cambria -"The Velorium Camper III: Al The Killer" When I kill her, I'll have her<br /><br />Dance upon the graves of the dead, upon your name<br /><br />Die white girls, die white girls<br /><br />Dance upon the graves of the dead, upon the graves of the dead urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:15712 2004-01-15T01:01:35Z 2004-01-15T01:01:35Z Good To Know That If I Ever Need Attention All I Have To Do Is Die urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:15408 2004-01-14T02:05:29Z 2004-01-14T02:05:29Z A killer in me is a killer in you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:15346 2004-01-13T00:04:51Z 2004-01-14T02:05:08Z "Bullet With Butterfly Wings"<br /><br />The world is a vampire, sent to drain<br />Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames<br />And what do I get, for my pain<br />Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game<br />Even though I know-I suppose I'll show<br />All my cool and cold-like old job<br />Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage<br />Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved<br />Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage<br />Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal<br />But can you fake it, for just one more show<br />And what do you want, I want to change<br />And what have you got<br />When you feel the same<br />Even though I know-I suppose I'll show<br />All my cool and cold-like old job<br />Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage<br />Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved<br />Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage<br />Tell me I'm the only one<br />Tell me there's no other one<br />Jesus was the only son<br />Tell me I'm the chosen one<br />Jesus was the only son for you<br />Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage<br />And I still believe that I cannot be saved urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:14895 2004-01-12T04:09:05Z 2004-01-15T01:02:34Z tired of it all I'm the kind of man who - hasn't the least idea what kind of man I am. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:14738 2004-01-07T19:57:01Z 2004-01-07T20:04:20Z Not even forever lasts forever and again I thought no matter how hard I try someday I'd be nothing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:14528 2003-12-27T04:50:40Z 2003-12-27T04:50:40Z i really wish it was <br />warm<br />out<br />its been boring because of the cold<br />got a new board today<br />but i cant really skate <br />cause its too cold<br />i relly miss tabby<br />i wish she could be here to enjoy the holidays with me<br />but without her here im not enjoying them at all<br />i still have six or seven days until i see her...<br />i guess i took seeing her every day for granted<br />you never realize just how much you love someone <br />until they are gone<br />well everyone see you later<br />tabby, i love you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:14290 2003-12-20T17:02:19Z 2003-12-20T17:02:19Z "Losing My Religion"<br /><br />Life is bigger<br />It's bigger than you<br />And you are not me<br />The lengths that I will go to<br />The distance in your eyes<br />Oh no I've said too much<br />I set it up<br /><br />That's me in the corner<br />That's me in the spotlight<br />Losing my religion<br />Trying to keep up with you<br />And I don't know if I can do it<br />Oh no I've said too much<br />I haven't said enough<br />I thought that I heard you laughing<br />I thought that I heard you sing<br />I think I thought I saw you try<br /><br />Every whisper<br />Of every waking hour I'm<br />Choosing my confessions<br />Trying to keep an eye on you<br />Like a hurt lost and blinded fool<br />Oh no I've said too much<br />I set it up<br /><br />Consider this<br />The hint of the century<br />Consider this<br />The slip that brought me<br />To my knees failed<br />What if all these fantasies<br />Come flailing around<br />Now I've said too much<br />I thought that I heard you laughing<br />I thought that I heard you sing<br />I think I thought I saw you try<br /><br />But that was just a dream<br />That was just a dream urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:13868 2003-12-19T17:36:59Z 2003-12-19T17:36:59Z in 6th study hall<br /><br />went to computer lab again<br /><br />bored as always<br /><br />later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:13726 2003-12-19T02:42:18Z 2003-12-19T02:42:18Z "There Is"<br /><br />This vacation's useless<br />These white pills aren't kind<br />I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive<br />I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9<br />And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights<br />I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have<br />The days have come and gone<br />Our lives went by so fast<br />I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor<br />Where i laid and told you, but you sweared you loved me more<br /><br />Do you care if i don't know what to say<br />Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me<br />Will i shake this off pretend its all okay<br />That there someone out there who feels just like me<br />There is<br /><br />Those notes you wrote me<br />I've kept them all<br />I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall<br />With every single letter in every single word<br />There will be a hidden message about a boy that<br />loves a girl<br /><br />Do you care if i don't know what to say<br />Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me<br />Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay <br />that There's someone out there who feels just like me<br />There is<br /><br />Do you care if i don't know what to say?<br />Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me<br />Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay <br />That there's someone out there who feels just like me<br /><br />Do you care if i don't know what to say?<br />Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me<br />Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay<br />That there's someone out there who feels just like me<br />There is urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bob10910:13379 2003-12-17T16:54:57Z 2003-12-17T16:54:57Z hahaha my study hall teacher jsut came in and was like what are you doin and i told him i was lookin at my friends journals and he started readin them with me and i was on mikes and it was like im a hoe and he started crackin up and i showed him kaylas and he started laughing hahahahaha it was funny ok bye again